I Don’t Care Anymore

I’m through with trying to occupy myself to try and
forget how much all of it is hurting.And I’m through
with what anyone else has to say about it.I can’t
force myself anymore.It wasn’t all his fault.He may
not have been the greatest but it wasn’t just him.
When you get an outside look,it really can put things
into perspective.Not that any of it would even matter.
I had what I wanted.The only thing:him.And I did
everything I could have to upset and hurt him as much
as he did me.An eye for an eye is the most horrible
thing you can do to someone you love.And I’m terrified
that I will never hear him speak a kind word to me again.
I can’t stand myself for the way I would act,things I would
do and say.I can’t even explain.No one would get it.
How is it possible to cry this much?

I miss him